Heart VS Head: Moving On
There comes a time when you must get to know yourself, and in this case one thing I know about myself is that if I write a blog idea in my phone, I will not write a post about it. So, this being the case, you will not get a post about being a unicycle instead of a third wheel, or a post about men vs women, or a post about why I'm proud of myself this week. I get to delete the note in my phone and move on.
"Moving on." I think most people think about this phrase in the context of the loss of a loved one, or the loss of a relationship. I'm thinking about this in the context of my parents moving on. Moving on from being parents of children, and moving to being parents of adults. I'm the youngest, so this is something I'm entirely unfamiliar with. Instead of fighting for independence like my brothers did, I am essentially given it. What do I do with this? My family system is entirely changing, and I was unprepared for it to come so soon. My oldest brother is married, my mom just got a full time job after being a stay at home mom for about 25 years, and I'm an 18 year old dual enrolled college student. What a world to live in. My whole life until now I was a child, treated like a child, but now, I feel unprepared for this change. My parents are actually flirting with each other again, which is amazing to see, but I see them as a couple now, instead of parents. I am feeling a little lost, a anchor-less. My mom has starting making jewelry again, and this is something I am glad to see, but it just feels strange to me. I almost feel like they are college kids again. But, I'm a college kid.
I'm not sure if other people have experienced this too. I really feel lost. Sad, honestly. I had wanted to come on here being super excited about all of this, but that's really not how I'm feeling. Can kids get empty nest syndrome? What is it called? I have no answers, and if I'm honest, I could use any answers you have.
"Moving on." I think most people think about this phrase in the context of the loss of a loved one, or the loss of a relationship. I'm thinking about this in the context of my parents moving on. Moving on from being parents of children, and moving to being parents of adults. I'm the youngest, so this is something I'm entirely unfamiliar with. Instead of fighting for independence like my brothers did, I am essentially given it. What do I do with this? My family system is entirely changing, and I was unprepared for it to come so soon. My oldest brother is married, my mom just got a full time job after being a stay at home mom for about 25 years, and I'm an 18 year old dual enrolled college student. What a world to live in. My whole life until now I was a child, treated like a child, but now, I feel unprepared for this change. My parents are actually flirting with each other again, which is amazing to see, but I see them as a couple now, instead of parents. I am feeling a little lost, a anchor-less. My mom has starting making jewelry again, and this is something I am glad to see, but it just feels strange to me. I almost feel like they are college kids again. But, I'm a college kid.
I'm not sure if other people have experienced this too. I really feel lost. Sad, honestly. I had wanted to come on here being super excited about all of this, but that's really not how I'm feeling. Can kids get empty nest syndrome? What is it called? I have no answers, and if I'm honest, I could use any answers you have.
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