Heart VS Head: Why I'm Wonderful And Why It Matters

I'm wonderful because of how my nose curves up at the end, my eyes that search for the answers to all my questions, and my eyebrows that can't help but show what I'm feeling. I'm wonderful because my big hair can't seem to decide if it's curly or straight. I'm wonderful when I laugh too loud or snort at a joke that surprises me. I'm wonderful when my voice cracks because I get too excited, or when my eyes go wide because of what I've just been told. I'm wonderful because of my collection of plaid shirts and scrunchies that I wear all the time. I'm wonderful when I say things that make me giggle, the little phrases I can't seem to get out of my brain until I express them loudly. 

I'm wonderful because I love to hear what people have to say, there's nothing that makes me happier than when I see people talking about their favorite things. I'm wonderful because I've grown to care less about what other people think, though I do still care an awful lot. I'm wonderful because I can laugh about anything, every situation has a humor to it, and I love finding it. I'm wonderful because of the way I think, I collect beautiful things in my mind, I think fast, but sometimes my roller coaster of thought is too fast and I miss it. I'm wonderful because of my flaws, the way I get flustered and can't get my words out, the way I freeze when I lose my roller coaster that had my ideas on it. I'm wonderful when I'm with children, or teaching something I know really well. I'm wonderful when I watch other people and see how wonderful they are, appreciating their beautiful flaws. I'm wonderful when I'm empathetic, and see people for who they are. I'm wonderful when I compliment people, showing them a little of themselves. I'm wonderful when I get out of my own head and care about others. I'm wonderful when I'm being a little salty, or when I'm coming up with a plan in my head. I'm wonderful when I trip over my own feet, get nervous talking to someone, or when I completely miss what someone said.

I'm wonderful because I stopped seeing my flaws as bad. They're part of me, and as soon as I let God have control he shows how wonderful he is through me. All my little cracks are there to let his light shine through. If I could cover them up, or didn't have them, I wouldn't need him. Isn't it more lovely this way?

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  1. FaithJanuary 10, 2020 at 8:13 AM

    This hit me hard. I think I really needed to read this today and God led me to it. I don’t know who you are but I stumbled across your blog on accident and I just wanted to say thank you. It’s really interesting to read your comparisons between the head and heart, and as someone who’s always found the two to be separate yet co-existing it’s quite fascinating to hear someone else’s view of it. I also tend to see my ‘flaws’ quite clearly and hyper-focus on them, many of them ones you mentioned above but to see someone else call them wonderful opened my eyes and made me realize I need to forgive myself for what I consider my faults and flaws and start seeing them as “wonderful” because they make us unique and that’s how God shows himself in us.
    So thank you for that, I wish all the best for you and I’ll be praying for you!

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    1. BeauJanuary 10, 2020 at 5:09 PM

      Faith, this is the most wonderful comment I could have received. I know God was giving me all the words for this post, but knowing that it actually meant something to someone is amazing. My heart is full for you, I know that God will be with you wherever you go, but I pray that you feel his presence especially as you work through loving yourself for who you are, and loving your flaws. You are made so perfectly, that all your wonderful little pieces work together. <3

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